The Ex Factor

If you have read about our Blog it is not just about losing weight, but about our crazy everyday life we lead. Today's post is just a taste of MO's  little bit of crazy......

I have to go to a Cub Scout event tonight. We are going to be sleeping in tents, doing a camp fire and all. Even if it is just at a local church ground/grass area it will still feel like camping - the cold night air, watching the stars, cooking on a camp stove...it should be fun. However, I am not too enthused about going. You see I don't have my little man this weekend. I will just be the leader, not a Mom. That will be hard since my own Scout will be coming with his father. The Ex Factor - or for some of you he is better known as Lemon! Ok - at least I think they will be coming. They have the information, they know the time, place and what to bring, but I have learned to not count my chickens until they are hatched.

I enjoy Scouting. I could go on and on - about how I run a camp of 200 kids each summer, that Scouting is way too much my life, but that would be a very long post. I have learned to be accepting of the fact that when it is not my custody weekend I still do the leader thing. Scouting is all about family and for me this has been a Mom & Son affair. I have gotten to see my son grow, learn and be enthused about many Scouting events. Heck this past year his picture was on one of the Trails End Popcorn package - he is a "star" in my eyes!!! And we get to go to Overnight Scout camp for 4 days for FREE for selling just the right amount of popcorn. Can't beat that! Opps - there I go again... on and on and on.....

 

But, when Lemon comes into play I have to repeat myself, play secretary, be the reminder and appointment setter. It can be very taunting. I am a very organized take charge kind of person. I keep my Scout families informed. I keep them up to date. I go above and beyond, but when there is one bad lemon in the bunch it is just hard. And I guess that would not be so hard if it was not my Lemon. What I really wanted to say is this...Lemon will not get to me this weekend. I realized last night that when I had to put my Mommy hat back on that I didn't feel discouraged (if you read yesterdays post I was supposed to be Mommy free last night, but it didn't really go fully to plan) I didn't get worked up, I didn't get annoyed (ok, maybe a bit), but I did have a good laugh.

For the moment I am loving my new found lifestyle, the need to be FREE that I have embraced, that I finally am taking the steps to get ME back. I realized this morning sitting having coffee with my little sis that I am moving forward. I am dropping weight, I am feeling good, and the change is happening. I did get divorced over 4 years ago, but have always been there to assist Lemon, keep Lemon informed and the lightbulb has gone off many many times - this time is different. I might have a moment tonight that I will feel like I am taking 2 steps back to those 10 that I have taken, but I will still feel good!! Seeing my ex tonight and into tomorrow will not discourage me. I will not get frustrated. I will not result to a pig out event. I am doing this for me and only me. My time to get healthy. My time to take a journey of change. I have a plan - writting down the plan - sticking to the plan:

• Will walk around the church grounds after dinner for my exercise factor
• Will walk before breakfast in the morning fresh air
• Will enjoy a cup of tea rather then hit Starbucks on the way home.
• Will not talk about parenting issues
• Will enjoy the socializing with other leaders that I have not seen in months.
• Will enjoy a wonderfully prepared dinner at home Saturday and Sunday - Christmas Present BBQ here I come!  
• Will get to the "to do" list of life and accomplish several items! Snacking will not consume me!!!

Everyone enjoy your weekend. I know mine will be successful in more ways then one!!!

"Staying MOtivated"

*** Update - 2 people brought me tea from Starbucks, so got my "fix".....besides being freezing cold and only sleeping 1 full hour on Friday night, the weekend was GREAT - and I am down a few more pounds***