We're Losing It!: Three years - how far have I gotten....

A brief update from that last post of January 12, 2014 - (wow, almost 4 months, I wish I was blogging more often)....my ex-husband has been declared cancer free, he is back to work and things are pretty much back to normal. The laugh one night was that he felt bad having me purchase him dinner (a Subway sandwich) and when I arrived to drop off my son and dinner I said "listen, we can go back to hating each other after you get better"....you have to know the hills and valleys we, or most people go through, in dealing with divorce - so you can just imagine the laughter coming out of us when I said that. I am grateful that he is better, a little leery when I think about what might be on the horizon, but thinking about that does not make one healthy.

I am still working fulltime - grateful that I have had the job for over a year after being unemployed for some 11 months. My son is growing up fast. Venturing into the teenage years and exploring the internet more then I wish he would. School is interesting for this 7th grader, and Mom is learning how to communicate with teachers that can't seem to communicate back to a hovering, but not overbearing mother. As I sit typing this post my son is working on the final touches of a two week long project...one can hope he gets an A+++

I have been thinking a lot about this blog. How much I miss it. How much I really need to take the time to write down my thoughts. How much I miss reading others journeys and they then in turn give me the drive to keep going on my own weight loss path. How much I wish I was further in losing all the weight I need to lose.

My good friend, Mer, and I started this blog some three years ago. January 2011 to be exact. Where has the time gone?? I wish I could say that I have lost all the weight I wanted to lose by now - thus the name of the blog "we're losing it"....but alas that is not the case. I am still at the same size (okay, about 10 pounds lighter) that I was in January 2011. Now that is a sad state of affairs. I lost just about 40 pounds in 2011 and then for some reason it all stopped. I gained back 30 and I haven't gotten back on the "band wagon" in a very very long time. I contemplate it, I write a post, I have every intention of making good on losing the weight - and nothing. I even try to find a goal and that goal never happens.

Why can't I seem to just get up every morning and exercise???

I went to the doctor in December and I even told him that he was going to keep me accountable. If I had to go back to the doctor every few months or so to take blood tests, then he would see my progress. No progress as of today. I found out that I do have a thyroid problem and I am on daily medication - you would think that would help...no progress on my part. Well, actually - the last blood test I had was good, no real results, but I don't have to go back to the doctor for another 3 months, so that is a good sign.

I did, however, stop eating Fast Food. I have only "cheated" - if I can really say "cheated" once in the last 5 months. I have been proud of my progress on that part, but you would think I would be 20 pounds lighter by now - no such luck. Hey - and when I say no fast food, I mean no fast food. I have a growing teenager and we have done the drive-thru one or two times, but each time I avoid the temptation. The only thing that I have allowed myself to get is a drink, and it has been a small or medium. I think I have only had a drive-thru soda about 5 times in the last 5 months. Progress - right, progress.

I can sit here and tell you about the successes, but there are no other success if I haven't lost the weight.

My office is moving back to the main winery location and there are many people who are going to see me on a daily basis (not just the same 20 faces) - heck, maybe I will find someone to date - there's one goal. There is a wedding reception in July for my sister (getting married after 20 years of being with the same guy - very excited about that)...many relatives and friends to see -

I want to show off a new look. My son is going to be starting High School in just about 1 year from now and having your Mom come to school events looking good is a goal. There are camping trips, 'bucket lists" to fullfill and just the pure fact that I need to lose the weight to be healthy for me, my son and for my future - that is a huge goal all by itself. (but can I admit, in the back of my mind I want to lose the weight to find a date)