I am still working fulltime - grateful that I have had the job for over a year after being unemployed for some 11 months. My son is growing up fast. Venturing into the teenage years and exploring the internet more then I wish he would. School is interesting for this 7th grader, and Mom is learning how to communicate with teachers that can't seem to communicate back to a hovering, but not overbearing mother. As I sit typing this post my son is working on the final touches of a two week long project...one can hope he gets an A+++
I have been thinking a lot about this blog. How much I miss it. How much I really need to take the time to write down my thoughts. How much I miss reading others journeys and they then in turn give me the drive to keep going on my own weight loss path. How much I wish I was further in losing all the weight I need to lose.
My good friend, Mer, and I started this blog some three years ago. January 2011 to be exact. Where has the time gone?? I wish I could say that I have lost all the weight I wanted to lose by now - thus the name of the blog "we're losing it"....but alas that is not the case. I am still at the same size (okay, about 10 pounds lighter) that I was in January 2011. Now that is a sad state of affairs. I lost just about 40 pounds in 2011 and then for some reason it all stopped. I gained back 30 and I haven't gotten back on the "band wagon" in a very very long time. I contemplate it, I write a post, I have every intention of making good on losing the weight - and nothing. I even try to find a goal and that goal never happens.
Why can't I seem to just get up every morning and exercise???
I went to the doctor in December and I even told him that he was going to keep me accountable. If I had to go back to the doctor every few months or so to take blood tests, then he would see my progress. No progress as of today. I found out that I do have a thyroid problem and I am on daily medication - you would think that would help...no progress on my part. Well, actually - the last blood test I had was good, no real results, but I don't have to go back to the doctor for another 3 months, so that is a good sign.
I did, however, stop eating Fast Food. I have only "cheated" - if I can really say "cheated" once in the last 5 months. I have been proud of my progress on that part, but you would think I would be 20 pounds lighter by now - no such luck. Hey - and when I say no fast food, I mean no fast food. I have a growing teenager and we have done the drive-thru one or two times, but each time I avoid the temptation. The only thing that I have allowed myself to get is a drink, and it has been a small or medium. I think I have only had a drive-thru soda about 5 times in the last 5 months. Progress - right, progress.
I can sit here and tell you about the successes, but there are no other success if I haven't lost the weight.
My office is moving back to the main winery location and there are many people who are going to see me on a daily basis (not just the same 20 faces) - heck, maybe I will find someone to date - there's one goal. There is a wedding reception in July for my sister (getting married after 20 years of being with the same guy - very excited about that)...many relatives and friends to see -
I want to show off a new look. My son is going to be starting High School in just about 1 year from now and having your Mom come to school events looking good is a goal. There are camping trips, 'bucket lists" to fullfill and just the pure fact that I need to lose the weight to be healthy for me, my son and for my future - that is a huge goal all by itself. (but can I admit, in the back of my mind I want to lose the weight to find a date)
I want and need to do this. I want and need to blog
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