Thursday was a really rough day for me. It wasn't supposed to be, but you know when you have a co-worker or someone close to you that is in a bad mood and sometimes you react to that bad mood - well, that happened to me today.
Then there was an issue at work that really hurt my feelings - and it was not done on purpose. Its silly - really, but it was something that effected me in an emotional way.
I have this new job. I am trying to get used to the fact that I not only am learning a whole new work - going from a construction environment to dealing with wine and federal compliance issues - but I work in a room of 4 other women (and sure that it will grow to 6 other women at one point). Now, don't get me wrong, I get along with many and get frustrated when not everyone gets along with me. But, that is not the point - the point is I have worked with men for over 10 years, limited women interaction and my bosses have been men for the last 13 - so working with women is an adjustment for me. Especially when two of the women in my office have worked for the company for over 12 years - there is a certain way to do things, you can't tell them a new way to do something and oh my goodness, don't correct them on even the copier issue.
A few weeks ago I wanted to cheer up one of my co-workers. I bought some $1.00 pom poms and did a few cheers for her, one for each day for about three days. (she has been working long hours and had a huge air conditioner issue during the hottest time of the year), so I wanted to make her feel good, and our office is so quiet, a good laugh from time to time was nice.
One of my co-workers came back from vacation and saw those pom poms. Made a comment, made another comment and then another - and only once where I knew about it. I knew that this one co-worker said that those pom poms were an annoyance - you should not be doing that at work. (I did only do it once in the presence of this negative person, so I thought it was still okay)
Long story short - the pom poms were in plain site, and well, they came down today. The person I gave it to sent me a text message on my phone, because we just can't talk in person - and we would hate to have that message sent by email for fear someone would see it She had to take them down. No elaboration - thanks for the cheers, but no more pom poms. Now, I can sit and wonder if our supervisor told her to take them down, but to be honest I think she was feeling the pressure from this other worker.
This whole incident made me upset. It made the rest of my day drag and I could not wait to get home. But, wait - I had to go to two meetings tonight and didn't even want to go to any of them. This has also been the first full week of school for my son - dealing with forgotten homework, missed breakfast and two days of not taking his lunch to school took its toll on me today and for that I am sorry that I had to take my frustration out on my son. I was in a awful of awful moods!!!!
In the long run, I wish I could have just eaten away my frustration. I wanted to just eat away the pain. Even upon coming home tonight I wanted a Wendy's Frosty - but instead I only got one for my son. Yes, I did have a little something when I got home that was not a good idea, but the good part - I didn't open up the refrigerator a second, third or fourth time. I got on my blog and took a moment to ahhhhhhh - to read successes, struggles and triumphs.
The other night was Dance Fever on our Wii - tomorrow is a morning stretch wake up call, and there is more walking at work, too.
Bad Mood or Rough Day - don't let the food take you over!!!! Let the weight loss by your success!!!