Some of the highlights of my week -
Getting some good leads on the work force. Had a lady call me that had viewed my resume that I had forwarded to another friend. This lady was a complete stranger to me. She is also looking for work, but in finding out about this one job opportunity she didn't feel she was qualified and then decided to call me so I could apply. I was thrilled. I am not sure where it will all lead, but to have someone out of the blue call me, think of me for a job, well, I am still smiling!!! Finding other leads that have me surprised has kept me busy with letter writing, applications and resume emailing. Things look pretty good on the job hunting prospects.
No unemployment money coming in as of yet, all in due time. The good part, I did not hyperventilate when I paid a handful of bills - no paper bag moment for me, so I am keeping it all in check. More good news, my ex-husband is going to let me claim my son on my taxes this year. That was a nice change of pace - with him saying that I could use the money more then he could this year. Wow - things are going pretty good for me. So much to be thankful for.
Then I went to the cardiologist on Wednesday and there is more good news - I do not have any major heart issues. I don't have to get on blood thinners and there is no sign that I am having any blood clotting. My doctor told me to just keep track of the flutter issue and if I feel that it is something that is causing major issues, then I could come back for more tests, but at the moment he is just saying that it is my heart telling me I am alive (LOL). I was so thrilled to hear this news. Laughed at my long list of questions I was going to ask, all to have them thrown in the trash. It was the icing on the cake for me in regards to my health.
But, a time of reflection in regards to my health was upon me. I realized on my drive home on Wednesday that having a little bit of a health issue, that turned out to be nothing huge is a good thing. (thank goodness)!!!
I have had two health scares in the last 18 months or so. Back in November 2010 I was having some minor issues with my "bottom" (no, not going into details on this one) and it caused me to reflect. This too turned out to be nothing and I chalked it up to the fact that I was eating wrong, was overweight and well, needed to get rid of that extra weight. Not that I was not ready to loss weight or that I was forced to loss weight, this was just the moment that I knew I was ready and willing and able to finally completely commit to losing those many extra pounds. I have been working hard. On the right path. Then to have this second health scare made me reflect again. Even with doing all that I have been doing, my body seems to be telling me "are you really doing enough". Yes, I am a pretty healthy individual. I don't have high blood pressure, my cholesterol is right on target, everything else seems to be right on track, with maybe a minor red flag on the diabetes front. I guess what I keep thinking is that if my "numbers" are right on target, then I can't be unhealthy. Oh, yeah, that's right - I have a lot of extra poundage that I am carrying around. It makes my insides do flip flops, while making my outside look bigger. Go figure, I do need to keep losing weight. I HAVE NOT given up on that factor.
So - listening to my body is key. I have been working out - but have I "really" been working out. I am drinking my water - but have I "really" been drinking enough? I have been watching what I been eating - but "watching" it go into my mouth is not the factor we are looking for - tracking and keeping it under control is the key to my success. I received a blog comment the other day that reminded me that even in my struggles with my job, life and my health I have not gained, and for that I am thankful. I need to keep going, I will keep going and those darn 5 pounds that keep holding me back - well, they will be a thing of the past very soon!!! And then there will be another 5 gone, and another 5 gone and so on and so on and so on.
I am reminded more and more each day (more so lately) that life is good, my life is good - I am going to make it better by still staying on this healthy living lifestyle. The smaller I get the more my body will applaud me and I will look back on my weight loss journey and smile!!!!!
Staying MOtivated Mo