I got a text this morning from a friend that wanted to know how I have done so well these past few months on my lifestyle. I sat for a moment and really thought about that question! How was I doing it? How has this been different? Then there is a fear!! Will I really be able to continue this journey?! I haven't been at this level of success in a really long time. What happens if I go up a pound or two or five or six? Can I control myself, will I be able to get down to my goal? What really is my goal? So many things going on with my thinking this week. I want to focus on me this week and there really isn't anytime. I am not down on myself, just having a busy kind of no time to do anything more kind of week. I really am proud of what I have accomplished, but at the moment I can't seem to feel that Cloud 9 kind of feeling. I want to feel that way, I desire to feel that way, Oh, don't get me wrong, I am still focusing on my committment to this lifestyle. As I sat down last night for a few moments to enjoy a little bit of the boop tube and for just a moment I was thinking - oh, a nice evening snack would be nice. I even contemplated making something more then a bigger "snack". Heck, the thought of those girl scout cookies talking to me from inside the freezer (with a nice glass of milk) even passed my mind for a moment. Just for that moment I fought off a bit of the brain waves and I didn't venture into the kitchen. We had just come back from a very delicious dinner of corned beef and cabbage, so I didn't need a second helping of nothing. The meal was huge and I was even proud that I left more then 1/2 of it on my plate. I even shared all but one bite of my potatoes with my son. I am doing this! I can keep doing this! I will get that Cloud 9 kind of feeling and I will be floating!
Ok - see now I am rambling and you might just be laughing at my little rant........So - here is what I have accomplished in the last two months:
- No fast food
- No after dinner eating
- No Seconds
- Portion Control
- No Soda's
- Drinking 6 - 8 (or more) glasses of water a day
- Allowing a treat maybe once a week, but I do not go out of my way to get it
- Sleeping 6-8 hours a night (which is very hard for me, being a very busy person)
- Accomplishing the "to do" list of life on the weekends - limited the being busy atmosphere and staying at home more - helping me stay focused on me a bit more
- Pulling out of two different committments (volunteering) so I can have time for me and my son more
- Packing my lunch every work day
- Making dinner at home almost every night
The other thing that is helping me is having support. Not only from the blog kind of world, but from friends and now my family.Thanks to all for the blog reading motivation, the inspiration, the laughter that reading your blogs bring me, the pictures, the stories....and so much more!!! 22 pounds down - so many more to go. Just one more day - I can do it!!! This week will come and go - I can do it - just one more day!!!