Wednesday, February 9, 2011

What Happened?

I slipped last night. I am not sure why. Well, that's not true - I totally know why. The same old pattern - the same old thing - didn't take my own motivation to heart. Heck, even the sign on the refrigerator that says "It's not in here" I ignored. The Vision Board avoided my vision!! I had this demon visit me last night - or should I say Wave - and now I am trying to justify it. What? How can I - I didn't even try to push it away - I just let it happen. I will say that I did enjoy the slip, but really, what good did it do me. I didn't savour it. I just ate it. I just kept telling myself that I was still hungry. That the food was calling my name. Just one bite - worked up to two - worked up to three....what happened? That nasty routine I have had for years is back - I need to squash it!!! I can sit and type all these motivational aspects about how to stay on track, stay the path, yada yada yada, but I have the hardest time doing it for me. The fight with the brain wave - the wave won last night. Not going to beat myself up about it, but wanted to be honest with myself and Mer today. Going for a walk at lunch to clear my head, give me time to figure out why this wave keeps happening. This is the hardest part of the path for me. This pattern has got to stop so that I can move forward!! Writing it down - making a plan - staying on track - beat it - let it go - YOU CAN DO IT!!
and no - it wasn't a burger and fries, but this picture is a good visual effect, don't you think?

Staying MOtivated (still)


Mer and Mo said...

I know exactly how you feel. Twice yesterday I had slip-ups! A piece of chocolate and too big of portions at lunch and dinner! And I am not beating myself over it, but I can't stand that I have them. I know it is just sticking to what I say I am going to do, but now this is getting hard! I know that we can do it. That we can stay the course and figure out ways to fight these bad habits. Keep talking and typing the right things and even though we are both having struggles. The more we change what we say to ourselves all the positive things and all the affirmations the better we will get at doing it.

So, Don't give up! The change is happening between our ears! We're feeling that struggle and instead of pushing it aside we are dealing with it. The mind will mold to what we want if we just keep at it!
We can do this thing together! Stay Strong!
Love you,

Mer and Mo said...

Doing the cut and paste for Mer while her comment posting abilities are down....MO