Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Day 18 of 100 day of weight loss- Retrain eating habits by Mer

I am on day 18 and I don't want to retrain anything. I know that is not the attitude that I should have, but that is how I feel right now. I want to be like my four year old and stomp my foot to say, "I don't want to." And I could, but no one wants to see that from a grown woman who has just hit that invisible wall inside my brain. You know the one that tells you- "Oh, what the hell are you doing? Why are you doing this again? "
So to get out of this "stuckness" I have to think all the positives that I have already experienced- clear thinking, more energy, and better self-image. I have to look at my vision board often to remind myself what I want.  I have to keep re-reading my own posts and Mo's post to get myself back motivated and committed.
Now, we're getting to the hard work of dealing with lifelong habits that must be broken. It is time to stop cleaning the plate. It is time to change and move in a new direction. It should not be this hard, but it has been ingrained into me. So the plate has to get smaller and I have to be more aware when I am no longer hungry. So I am going to take baby steps and eventually I will be able to leave food that I don't want on my plate.
My little brain is at it again-
Retrain and stay the course!

1 comment:

Mer and Mo said...

Stay the course Mer!!! You can do it - don't let that brain of yours win!! I am proud of your progress so far - what is is 8 pounds down!! So good!!! Your brain should be saying - GO!! Keep Moving!!! You are doing GREAT!!!