Doctor Frustration OR.....

...not really sure what I am feeling right now.

Mo here - been taking a bloggy break so that you all get a chance to read those great posts from Mer in regards to the 100 Days of Weight Loss book. Yes, it has been more then 100 days for us both, but I am loving the fact that I can see Mer's perspective in regards to what we have read this year.

However, today's events could not go by without me giving you an update. Will try to make this short....

December 23rd - quick pressure on the chest moment. Didn't last but 15 seconds. Continued about my day. Two to three weeks later still having minor skip a beat moments. Nothing major, just enough for me to notice (all while sitting or laying down). Continued to workout, no problems there. Already know I am not diabetic or have any other weight related issues (blood test wise) from a something not going to mention it situation - TMI that turned into nothing series of tests back in late 2010. BUT, going to play it safe. Appointment moments have begun....and yes, I did figure that ultimately these appointments would turn into weight related ones....so, here goes -

Regular doctor who has seen me before, pretty good visits each time. In the process of this appointment somehow I find out she does not know what a Boot Camp is, nor is aware of The Biggest Loser. She also rolls her eyes when I sort of laugh off the fact that I am "labeled" as morbidly obese. Oh, and also since this was going to be a "full" physical could she check my shoulder that is making this popping sound. I am just told that yes, the popping sound is bone on bone, but don't raise your arms up over your head. Try to do different exercises that won't do more damage. Damage - Hello - Damage - don't you think we should do something about this??? (that is a whole other can of worms in itself).

At this point we are just trying to figure out what the chest pain is all about. So.....blood tests - checking Cholesterol this time and other things. All come back normal - or what you can call normal. I could have better glucose  (blood sugar) numbers, but nothing red flagged.

Thyroid is enlarged. Blood taken. Ultrasound of the neck. Good news - it is not a boy, but it might be twins.....(laughing moment)....don't know the results, but I had to make a joke to the tech just to get her to smile. Hey - the good news is, if I do have a Thyroid problem, then maybe they will give me a pill and I will magically lose all this weight and turn into a Skinny Bitch (not true, but my sister thought that was funny).

Onto the Cardiologist - remember, this was a chest issue, might be heart related. All is fine - EKG is semi normal, nothing to scream about. But, yes you are heavy. I tell him I have been losing weight, exercising, have a pretty good eating habit, doing all what I feel is the right stuff. Well, it might not be your heart, but we think it still could be. But wait - not the heart, but let's do a stress test and an ultrasound of the heart (at this point I am grateful that I have insurance, but the co-pays - yikes). Have to wait a whole month for the next set of heart tests.

But, then this moment - this second doctor starts to give me a SALES pitch. Yes, he has a great program he would be happy to recommend in regards to weight loss. Did I just ask to hear about this? Don't recall that question coming out of my mouth. He started it in 2005, very successful, great way to drop those added pounds. Oh, and did I happen to mention that he also didn't like when I smiled about being able to say that I was morbidly obese. (Come on, it took a long time for me to say that out loud). If you know me, I laugh this off because I hate that I am labeled like that. I know all the experts out there say I am, I know I am, but can't I laugh about it? Back to his Pitch - I hear everything from call my other patients.....your insurance will pay for it....oh, but you have to pay for the cost of food....it is a wonderful program.

I can't figure out if I am frustrated, annoyed or just kind of floored right now. First of all, they don't think it is my heart. More tests to do. I am willing to do that. Second of all, what is wrong with me? More tests to do. I am willing to do that. But, third - one doctor kind of blows off the fact that I am overweight and the second doctor is going to give me a "sales pitch" about a weight loss program?? I didn't go to hear about my weight, but knew it was going to happen. I know I need to loss the pounds and all that...just not sure where the happy medium is in all of this. I don't need an ATA BOY for losing weight, but ....one doctor is saying nothing and the other doctor is saying I am not doing enough. I guess me saying things like - I am losing weight, I have a weight loss blog for support, I am exercising more (oh, but let's not forget that he does not think that Boot Camp is a wise idea - hello - I wanted to try it - that is exercising - right??!!) is just not enough or ???? Kind of at a loss for words at this point.

I will keep you updated. I am not feeling up to par, but still plugging away. Feeling very much out of sorts in many other ways....keeping an eye on it and not trying to worry too much. Being patient in the doctor appointment issue. They are both just doing their jobs. The weather is very chilly here and hoping the rain will start soon. Doing 32 degree morning walks with the neighbor and loving them, moved my elliptical into the family room (and yes, I have gotten on it a few times), been back on the balance ball. Not doing the best eating, but still tracking it and having many an ha ah moment with my eating. Oh - and Mer and I are on a Better Body Challenge and some how I STILL do not have the workout or eating plan sent to me - even if they promised to email it to me some 5 days ago.

So - my rant, vent and rambling session is over - thanks for giving me the opportunity to fill you in.

MO-tivated MO

P.S. - sent out a post a few days ago, but many of you might have or have not noticed a blogger issue. I have been able to find a "back door" opportunity to read blogs, but not able to read from my own blog access as blog screens will freeze and I am only seeing part of your posts. If you have your comments in Embedded form, then changing it to a Pop Up or Full Page will fix this problem (especially for those of us that read your blog via Internet Explorer). That way others and myself can comment again. THANKS!!!!