Ok - Ok - so I am getting off track here...........
You see, there have been times in the past when I have had a FREE Mom Week or FREE Mom Weekend (sometimes it is a perk to have an ex) that I get the chance to enjoy a night out. I love to go out with the girls, but there were times that I just needed to have a night out with the grocery store. (Maybe I would find a nice looking guy in the milk section - yeah, right.........)
Friday afternoon - the work clock is about to hit 5 pm and this single girl has planned her evening and is excited about heading home, but wait - what am I doing for dinner? Let's stop for some "treats". A movie, maybe even a good magazine, but the grocery store was my escape. A good place to get a cheap and LARGE meal of take-out Chinese food, then proceed down the Frozen Food Aisle - you know the one - the Ice Cream. I have always been thrifty, so sometimes I would go back and forth as to what was cheaper - the 2 for $6.00 offer or should I just get the Ben & Jerry's pint?? And of course I had to make my way down the soda aisle - a large thing of Coke. Sometimes other things would fall into that basket too....chips, dip, another sweet treat for Saturday or Sunday, and what the heck, how about a pizza or other not really good for list of foods that I was going to eat before the sun came up on Monday morning. I was a "closet" eater. I would "hide" these food from my son. I don't force him to eat healthy, but I used to make sure that if there was a "treat" in the house that it was limited. I would endulge in the treats and not let him know that was the reason why I was not losing weight. I didn't want him to get into the same habits as I did. Oh, what was I doing. Wow - the memories are coming back.
Well, Wednesday night I had that moment, that memory. I had that Single Gal kind of Free Mom moment. I had a late night with my Parents Without Partners meeting and I was so proud of myself for not being tempted to get Pizza, as the meeting was at Round Table Pizza. Someone offered me a slice and another offered me Chicken Wings....I just drank my water with every intention to eat dinner at home. But, the meeting went so long and I was tired and I didn't want to cook - how about fast food - oh, it was so tempting - Sonic, Jack In the Box, Moo Moo's Hamburger Joint.....but, no, not that - how about the grocery store. Yep - that's the ticket - something good. A roasted chicken for the rest of the week, a thing of soup (because it was raining again)...the list went into my head. As I was crossing the parking lot it occured to me - "Remember when you used to do these evening trips to the grocery store and get the ice cream??" I so laughed out-loud. I wasn't tempted. I wasn't going to cave. I have been doing great. I am loving this new life for me. I am feeling charged, energized and just around the corner to feeling sexy again - I can do this!!!
I left the store with a bunch of bananas and two frozen healthy (actually pretty yummy) meals (one for lunch the next day). I was smart with my purchase and proud that I had a very successful shopping trip without a list and without the temptations all around me. This Gal is doing it - fully charged and ready to tackle that next memory, that next moment!!!
Keep it up - you can do it - I can do it!!!!