I have had some emotional ups and downs in just the last 18 hours. It is amazing how just a little day can change at the drop of a hat. I am also surprised at how I am handling all of it. Older sis is having a minor medical test, but she decided to text all of us at 10:30 pm last night to tell us. Not really sure she thought about the reaction she would get from some of us on that. Keeping her close in thought today. Then I have a long time friend that I finally decided to express my concerns to about her lifestyle changes and well, the flood gates have opened up. Not getting into a war of words, just know that there is a silver lining in all of this and letting things fall where they may. I have to be strong for me, think of me (not being selfish) and realize that I am now taking care of me!! I also don't have my son tonight and well, time for this girl to let her wings out for just a moment since this single mom of one has not had a solid "mommy" break in over 3 weeks.
What I am amazed about is this - I have totally come up with a good plan of action tonight. I am staying focused and I am thrilled at how that makes me feel. Maybe it is the water, maybe it is the exercise, maybe it is the fact that the shirt and pants are a bit lose, maybe it is this new attitude in life I am finally putting into action??? Yep, for a moment I thought - comfort food - a burger, the fries (oh, and those fries that lady was eating on that TV show last night made me crave them for only a moment) and maybe even a chocolate shake (or in my case a Very Large Soda), And I don't have my son tonight...sneak a treat... but nope - not going to do it. Came up with a plan - taking a walk with a friend I have not seen in over 2 months and we are even going to do Subway for dinner. Friend time, a sandwich moment - ahhhh - taking the time to recharge, get ready for the weekend and be satisfied with the week that I have had!!!
FEELING AND STAYING MOtivated