Resurfacing

You know when you jump into the pool and you drop to the bottom and you just enjoy that quiet moment just as you are heading back up to the surface. Well, I think that is where I am. I am enjoying being in a new pool, swimming, checking things out and from time to time I come back up to the surface.

I am enjoying my time off, as much as it is being forced upon me as unemployment. I am looking for work, had a most awesome interview two weeks ago and even if I didn't get the position, I was glad that I was able to do so well. I am working as a volunteer at both my sister's and son's school, taking the time to deal with many things that need to be done - paperwork here, paperwork there. Love taking the time to work on the yard - as time consuming as it can be.

The best part - I am working out practically every day. If I am not walking with the neighbor ladies, I am taking the time to do a workout in front of the TV with a DVD. Almost every afternoon I am doing a 2 mile walk to my son's school. And since he likes to ride his bike, I have been pushing the bike to the school and he rides it home, while I walk. I got the chance to laugh and laugh and laugh last Thursday - let me explain - After doing my 2.5 mile morning walk and working on the backyard lawn & rose bushes for 2 hours it was a fight to make the walk to the school that afternoon. But, you know what - I was so excited that my mind allowed me to make the walk. It would have been so easy to hop in the car and go pick up my son. Instead I was going to make the walk. This is where the laughter comes in - just about 1/2 way to the school I decided to hop on my 11 years old's bike - it was a bit small, but I was able to ride it. I was so surprised a fly did not make it into my mouth, because I was laughing so much. The laughter was even worse when making that last turn into the school grounds one of my good friends was pulling in, too - we all laughed together.

Amazing how things can change, because I am now loving working out everyday. I miss it when I don't get to work out. Saturday was full and a visit with Mer was on the agenda. I laugh a bit when we ended up sitting in the front yard talking for over an hour when we really should have just gone for a walk, but we needed the quiet time together. Mother's Day for me had a walk on the agenda. I surprised myself - I really wanted to get that walk in. Monday night Boy Scout meetings include walking the downtown area with one of the other Scout parents while our boys attend their meeting. I am taking care of me.

I am struggling still a bit with the eating, but doing my best to keep it under control. Driving home from Mer's on Saturday I was craving a hamburger and fries, but instead opted for a stop at the grocery store and I enjoyed a sandwich and carrots. A new type of fast food for me.

So - even if I have not been reading as much, posting as much or supporting all of you as much, I am doing really good. The pool is inviting and I am glad that I am taking care of me. Things will all come together, I am holding on, taking time to exercise, have quiet moments, but at the same time making sure that what needs to be done is getting done. I do hope to get back to blogging on a regular basis, as I do need that support, just as much as I want to give many of you my own support.

Stay Strong
Stay Fit
Keep Going
Be Good to Yourself


MOtivated MO

Oh, the Anticipation

Not only do I have a job interview today, but I am doing really well with my eating, drinking, exercising and doing my best to keep losing the weight. Soooo - the anticipation is building with me today. I got on the scale about 10 times this morning, just hoping that the number would move, even just a little. The good part, it didn't go up each time. I even got out of the shower and tried weighing myself with wet hair - no movement. I then tried it with dry hair. The had to go to the restroom and tried it again - no movement. The anticipation is killing me. I wanted to go down one more number, just for today. Not going to blow it this week, want to keep watching that scale go down, down, down, down. I had a good weekend out with friends, but that made the numbers go up. I knew it, but I didn't let the weekend of fun get out of hand. In less then 2 days my numbers are in line again. Now all I have to do is be consistent. Weekends of fun can't be that - eat in moderation and the numbers won't have to battle back each and every week. The other anticipation, I really want to get to the next hole on my watch. I can feel it. Sometimes I can see it. There are times I do get to the next hole, but then after about a minute or two I really have to loosen the watch and say to myself - "maybe tomorrow".

Last week it was a mind over matter issue with me. I am now loving the fact that I am putting exercise into my daily routine again. I sat at my desk yesterday balancing on my balance ball rather then sitting in my chair. Not only is my back getting stronger with doing my best to stay seated up straight, but I can give my legs a good workout at the same time. Reading things (blogs, for instance) give me the chance to rock back and forth on the ball - so now I feel like I am exercising and getting the chance to catch up on my reading.

Well - have to run - the anticipation of the interview is in sight. Been waiting over a week for this appointment, I am excited, ready and know that Magic is going to happen today!!!!

Wishing everyone a most wonderful week - keep up the good work with the weight loss - don't let the mind win over what matters most - making yourself healthy!!!!

MOtivated Mo