I had a goal this weekend. I wanted to have the scale show me that I had lost 30 pounds!! I was really focused on it and didn't allow myself to go off the schedule, eating plan or exercise...but I didn't starve myself either. Sunday was the goal - I wanted to see the number on Sunday. I normally let the scale talk to me "officially" on Sundays. Last week was the end of the Chubby Bunny Challenge, so it was Saturday - so I in fact got an extra day. What a wonderful start to my Mother's Day celebration and a great gift to myself - down 30. The best part, the scale actually gave me 1 more pound. So - I am very excited to share with all of you that as of Sunday, May 8, 2011 - I have lost 31 pounds!!!!
I did look in the mirror and I don't really see a huge difference. My clothes are seeing it, but I am not. Sorry to say, but I am being honest here. You see, I have been doing my research and according to 3 or 4 different websites I have to get rid of A LOT to get to a "goal" weight. Yes, it is time - time to tell you all - oh, this is hard for me, because I never tell anyone - not even my best friend or my closest sister what my weight is. In fact, I hate getting on the scale at my yearly doctors appointment because the look that I get. I step on the scale and the Nurse will set the mark at 200 and when I move it up past the 250 the Nurse will look at me (viewing me with that up and down head bob) and wonder why I am moving it. Then they have to move up and up with the little nob and my heart just starts to race - I hate seeing that number, but I never have done anything about it. I have been more then 250 pounds for more then 10 years. Wait - oh wait, correction - nix that - that isn't true - back in 2007 I dropped about 15 pounds and was down in the 240's, but I put it all back (and then some) just short of 1 year later. I know that I have not posted a picture on this blog, (contemplating it), but let me "paint" you a picture. I am 5'6" and I feel that I am a pretty promortioned kind of gal - I carry my weight all over the place, but hate my Dolly Parton chest (LOL) and I do thank my lucky stars that my mother & father gave me the lack of a large stick out kind of butt or huge hips....kind of funny when I write it down. I have been able to maintain my weight at about a 260, or say 265 norm for several years. That is just awful - having to say that I "maintain" such a huge size. What the heck was I thinking!! That is not healthy, but for me at the time it was what I was only able to call healthy. Heck, I even had a full physical last year and the doctor was impressed that all my "numbers" were excellent. The only concern was that there was the impending threat of diabeties, but not that bad. Numbers or not, I was ready, thought about it, talked to Mer and before you knew it I started and so glad that I did!!......so before I keep going on and on and on.....here it is....the numbers......
September to December 2010 another few or more pounds were put on, must have been that 1/2 of pie I finished off in two days. January 2011 my official weight was 275 (yep, you read that right). According to several websites I should have a healthy range of weight say 154 to 132, or what about this other site that says 155 to 118....or another one says 186 - man, which is it. I can lose 86 pounds or lose up to 157 - I figured I need to lose another 3 more 30's. No matter how I look at it that is a lot of weight that I am carrying around. However, I am not looking at those LARGE numbers - the final goal. What I am looking at are the little numbers - the 1 to 2 pounds per week, the numbers on my jeans that are going from 24 to 22 to 20 and I think I might be able to get into an 18 by the end of this month, even the next 10 or the next milestone - what about 40 and 50 pounds down - that for me will be an even more joyous occassion!!!
So - there you have it - my losing weight journey - how it began this last January, where I am now - currently at 244 and LOVING that I have just started my trip down the "yellow brick road". I am feeling recharged, energized, excited and taking each week as it comes. For me, this is just the beginning and for sure not the end!!!
Thanks for everyone - especially my BFF MER!!!!!!!! for helping support me, encourage me, give me a laugh from time to time. I am reaching for the BRASS ring and soon it will be in my hands and I won't let it go!!!
Staying MOtivated MO